And while I am at it, let's talk about FAT!

Why can't I stop eating??? WHY????? After having vertical sleeve gastric surgery a year and a half ago, I lost about 35 pounds right away. Guess what? Those 35 pounds are creeping back on. 17 of them are right back in the stomach, bat wing arms, and tubby bottom. Even with a tiny little tummy, I can overeat. I can eat a little cookie here, and 15 minutes later I can eat a pile of Cheetoes. Some Velvetta cheese and crackers go down easy, and then I still eat dinner, or lunch, or whatever meal I need to call it. I am so disgusted with my fat self. I know there is a thinner girl in me...but truth be told, I haven't seen her since age 17, when I was considered the fattest girl in my class and I weighed a whooping...wait for it....wait for it...a whopping 132 lbs. What the He**???? My legs are killing me from the three year old back injury, and at this rate, they will always hurt. I need diet buddies...people who understand fat and the joys of having it. :( When I was at Long Elementary, I seemed to do better with my friends encouraging me. Now I just have myself and I have proven beyond a shadow of a doubt that I can't be trusted with food of any sort. Who's with me????